Wednesday, November 24th, 2010
By Mona Eltahawy
The Jerusalem Report
I was 23 years old and I was interviewing an Egyptian feminist who had just taken over as editor-in-chief of a women’s magazine of the cooking-and-fashion variety, which she had vowed to turn into the go-to magazine for women’s rights.
I was excited to meet her because she was one of the real-life feminists that my recently returned-to-Egypt self loved to meet to help me turn theory into action. Ever since I’d discovered feminist journals on the bookshelves at my university in Jeddah, Saudi Arabia, at the age of 19, I’d devoured all I could of the theory.
I had returned to Egypt at 21 hungry to put it into action. My first encounter with those essays was nothing short of terrifying. That’s how you know what you need – it scares the hell out of you because it encourages you to jump but you don’t know if you’ll ever land. Religious conservatism was suffocating me in Saudi Arabia and I was losing my mind. I didn’t care about landing. I was overdue for a jump.
So returning to Egypt at 21 after 14 years away was a chance to water that seed of feminism with the sustenance of real-life women who embodied it. I looked for them everywhere I could. Many of the older women practically adopted me, inviting me to their meetings, sending me their latest reports and alerting me ahead of important conferences they were holding.
And there I was interviewing a fellow, albeit veteran, journalist. “Why are you covering your hair?” she asked me.
Did I mention I wore a headscarf? I’d started to wear it at the age of 16 in Saudi Arabia. I wore it for a total of nine years, eight of which were spent trying to take it off. Every year was a struggle.
So the editor-in-chief had hit on a raw nerve that I had kept well hidden. She’d totally blindsided me. I wasn’t there to talk about me but I became Exhibit A as she explained the conservative forces at work against Egyptian women.
“Can’t you see you’re destroying everything we’ve worked so hard for?” she asked me.
I was such an enthusiastic self-identified feminist and the thought that I was letting the sisters down horrified me.
“But I’ve chosen to dress like this,” I replied.
Two years later I chose to take off the headscarf. It represented a conservatism I was walking away from. But when a year later, I was interviewing another Egyptian feminist icon who said in passing that women who wore the headscarf were brainwashed, the interview was derailed for about 20 minutes as I argued with her.
My younger self’s interviews with the two older icons of Egyptian feminism keep coming back to me as I keep coming across the older vs. younger variation but also as more religiously conservative women call themselves “feminist.” Sarah Palin et al. here in the US, for example.
When did “feminist” start to hold such cachet, you have to wonder. My experience with religious conservatism across Christianity, Islam and Judaism in Egypt, Saudi Arabia, Israel and now the US has convinced me that it invariably benefits men more.
A younger Egyptian friend and co-founder of a new feminist group recently shared with me her own struggles with older feminists, including one who chided her for wearing a skirt that was “too short.” So my icons chided me for dressing too conservatively and now they’re after “racy” clothes?
And here at a panel in New York, feminist writer Naomi Wolf explained to younger feminists about the anxiety shared by feminists of her generation and older: “If we hand it [feminism] over to you, you’ll fritter it away on blogging and high heels.”
Wolf is another icon shattered. While I loved her first book “The Beauty Myth,” a stinging rebuke of the ways women’s bodies are controlled and manipulated in the West, I detested a column she wrote last year on Muslim women and covering.
“I put on a shalwar kameez pants/dress and a headscarf in Morocco for a trip to the bazaar. Yes, some of the warmth I encountered was probably from the novelty of seeing a Westerner so clothed; but, as I moved about the market – the curve of my breasts covered, the shape of my legs obscured, my long hair not flying about me – I felt a novel sense of calm and serenity. I felt, yes, in certain ways, free,” Wolf wrote.
I gagged.
Why is another culture’s conservatism always so much more attractive? I know Wolf was trying to counter the anti-Muslim reflex to paint all us Muslim women as voiceless apparitions. But, please – is the only alternative the sexy hijab?
Now, after I give public lectures, I count the minutes before a Muslim man – it’s rarely a woman – ignores all that I’ve just said and demands to know where my headscarf is.
And I make a distinction between a headscarf and a face veil, regardless of “choice.” I support a ban on the face veil everywhere and I curse the xenophobic and bigoted European right wing pushing for it. But I will not allow my feminism to be used to defend something that I believe represents the antithesis of that feminism: the erasure of women in the name of religion.
To be a Muslim and a feminist is to stand in the crossfire and yell “Shut the f**k up!” to everyone around you because you know that anything you say can and will be used against you by everyone.

Comments (13)
Carolyn Vines said:
Love, love, love the last few lines of this post. I’m not Muslim, but this post resonates with me. Although many people around me don’t see me as one, I am also a feminist. I don’t subscribe to a particular feminist thought save my own. As a feminist I accept the choices that other women make. I don’t agree with them all the time, but I accept that not all women have to think the same way that I think for their points and positions to be valid. As a feminist I believe in defining myself in my own terms and on my own terms and f*** how others will have me defined because, as you so eloquently put it, anything I say can and will be used against me by everyone!
November 24th, 2010, 10:00 am
Craig said:
Weird to see a woman only a little older than me being referred to as an “older generation” feminist! I was just a child during the feminist movement in the US, and so was Naomi Wolf. And so was Sarah Palin, for that matter.
It’s somewhat interesting how wildly her opinions about women hiding their bodies to achieve liberation seem to be the polar opposite of what the early feminist movement was all about and yet the older feminists (the real ones) seem to be agreeing with her about that. I think feminist movements are like most activist movements where the goal is first and foremost to upset the status quo. Her argument is that women in the west have become so body-conscious and beauty-conscious that it’s harming their self-image, so how better to combat that than to hide their bodies and deliberately make themselves look plain? I’m not saying I agree with her argument (I don’t) but I am able to follow her logic.
November 24th, 2010, 5:14 pm
Sander said:
Isn’t feminism/emancipation first of all about the right/possibillities to make your own choices for your own free will? It doesn’t matter if you wear a headscarf or not. (I do object to any clothing that covers a face, because it makes real interaction between people impossible. You have to be able to face the person in front of you. That’s a two way situation).
I admire you, Mona, because you give me the feeling you did (and do) make your own choices, based on what you believe is true.
I object to the idea that conservatism may benefit men more. Some might see it that way. Stupid! I, as an ICT-consultant, work in an all man team. We used to have 1 woman for years and 2 women for a short period in our team. Our team was better on almost every point, and especially in atmosphere, even with 1 woman and I saw her leave with regret. She’s still one of my best friends. We have contact on an almost daily basis. But she’s missed in my team, like no male colleque has ever been missed.
Men, though not all might see this as clearly as I do, need feminism/emancipation as much as women do. Human kind needs all human beings to be equally valued, appreciated and loved.
November 26th, 2010, 10:08 pm
Dale Raby said:
Here in Wisconsin, we just concluded our gun deer hunting season. Last Saturday, I loaded a shotgun and trooped off to the woodlot of a privately owned farm where (I thought) there would be no other people. Upon arrival at a thick cedar stand, I beheld an amazing sight; a man dress in a brown Carhart jacket gathering firewood!
Now, as you might surmise, walking into the woods wearing a garment the same color as a white-tailed deer during the deer hunting season is tantamount to insanity. I restrained myself from firing a shot into the air just to see the man jump.
While that individual perhaps did not intend to make a target of himself, you clearly did as soon as you took on the dual mantle of feminist/Muslim. Did you expect that nobody would take shots at you?
As you have repeatedly pointed out; there is more than one kind of Muslim, and that not all Muslims are bomb-throwing jihadists intent on blowing up Christmas celebrations.
I posit that there is also more than one kind of feminist, or perhaps that there are “degrees” of feminism. I can accept that not all who wear the label of “feminist” believe that all sex is rape, that as many abortions as possible should be performed each year, and that men should be emasculated whenever possible. There certainly are individuals who believe these things and more.
“Feminist” is a word that gets its definition largely from the context in which it is used. Sarah Palin would have scandalized the original woman suffragists with her brand of feminism. You don’t see her as a feminist at all.
If you can be a “different kind of Muslim”, why can’t Sarah Palin be a “different kind of feminist”?
I posit that you are less of a feminist than you are a liberal. I’ve cited my reasons for this in the past… they have to do with the fact that you want to bring about changes in Egyptian society, and Middle Eastern society in general. Conservatism doesn’t work toward that end.
In any case, the next time you visit the Peoples Republic of Madison… bring a blaze orange garment!
November 30th, 2010, 3:39 pm
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December 3rd, 2010, 1:49 am
MarkNS said:
I really don’t understand why you cling to ridiculous superstition when your evolved and learned moral compass tells you that so much of Islam is wrong. Your support for woman’s rights is admirable yet it is completely at odds with the tenets of your chosen religion. Islam (and Christianity and Judaism among others) is replete with misogynistic nonsense and inequality for women. The very fact that you cherry pick the parts of Islam you believe to be good is proof that you don’t need the Mohamed’s medieval rantings to provide you with a moral guide.
Dump the belief in fairy tales and the cognitive dissonance under which you are labouring will disappear.
December 11th, 2010, 4:46 am
Feminist Islam « blue milk said:
[...] Really interesting article here from Mona Eltahawy which yielded, among other things, this fabulous quote: To be a Muslim and a feminist is to stand in the crossfire and yell “Shut the f**k up!” to everyone around you because you know that anything you say can and will be used against you by everyone. [...]
December 29th, 2010, 6:32 pm
Matarij said:
To be a Muslim and a feminist is to stand in the crossfire and yell “Shut the f**k up!” to everyone around you because you know that anything you say can and will be used against you by everyone.
Sadly, this quote works just as well with ‘woman’ in the place of ‘Muslim’.
December 30th, 2010, 1:31 pm
Pär Larsson said:
Sorry if this seems like an advertisment. I’m trying to pull some attention to needless deaths of Iraqi civilians due to their security forces being duped and sold fraudulent bomb detectors that don’t work …by a UK company. http://reasonablydoubtingnews.blogspot.com/2011/02/selling-death-fraudulent-bomb-detectors.html
If you could talk about it on your blog we might just put an end to this stuff.
February 1st, 2011, 7:52 pm
niels said:
I would like to send a msg to the protesters in Egypt that will hopefully move things forward, something everyone can get behind. I suggest this slogan:
“Government RESIGN! We want an election!”
February 4th, 2011, 12:32 am
maia said:
Believe me, feminism has no cachet in Britain. It translates immediately into ‘Frigid Manhating Bitch Who’s just Angry because she hasn’t been Fucked hard enough’, whatever context or even in isolation. Further, I’ve spent my life being advised i’m disgusting and will never be loved because i don’t shave my legs or wear makeup etc, often by threatening gangs of youths in public places. I just want to be left alone, i’m not after approval or agreement, just not being beaten up on would be fine. (At least i didn’t used to have to deal with the imported arab hatred of bodyhair before.) To quote a poster above, “While that individual perhaps did not intend to make a target of himself, you clearly did as soon as you took on the dual mantle of feminist/Muslim. Did you expect that nobody would take shots at you?” No, i actually just want to leave my body as it is, not deface or degrade or alter it as if it wasn’t good enough to live as it is. I don’t feel degrading your self versus ‘being in the crossfire’ is a fair choice. I actually feel the burqa and the sexualisation of women are the same thing: women are sex objects. So, i offend because i’m not a sexy sex object (to me, i’m just me, in my body, but in my society, my body is a sex object). The burqa is because the sex object (to me,me in my body) will lead men into temptation. But my body is me, i am my body: when it dies, i’m dead; it’s inseparable from me. Acceptance of your body is the true first basis of anarchism.
February 23rd, 2011, 3:09 pm
Russell said:
It is comforting to find people I have very little in common with but also find a link in the desire to move beyond the past into a future of what could be. To imagine a world where the weak are protected by the strong. To imagine a world where the rich and powerful want to share and not use people for gain.
To dream the dream of what could be. To be inspired by the mind of a creative soul.
It gives life meaning and inspires to aspire to the greater good.
I’m in Las Vegas, Nv.
October 28th, 2011, 11:44 am
Salwarekameez said:
Mona, I really love this article. Hope to see more terrific articles in the future! I’ll be visiting your blog often from then on.
February 29th, 2012, 7:40 pm
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